I must confess I haven’t been much of a menu planner or shopper. Actually let’s amend that and add never much of a menu planner and shopper for myself. For the group home I did it all the time.
But when I started this journey I knew a lot of things would have to change. So I just planned out the menu and shopping list for the next three days.
You might want to not believe this, but I am not a person to try new things. But I am making a Mediterranean meal that uses Hummus for lunch one day. I figured what the hell let’s try it. I will let yoi know what Momma and I think of it.
As long as I live I will never like shopping. I hate it. Making decisions and checking labels is a pain in the ass. But I can’t deny after paying more attention to what I eat I feel better. AND the added bonus of all the extra steps I take trying to find this stuff. Every step counts.
So I am feeling pretty damn proud of myself and my Momma. We are putting in the work and seeing results. Can’t ask for more then that. Well maybe a personal shopper and a chef. Lol yeah sure. Take Care Friends
I think I may have touched on it, but not in much detail. I am making the biggest change of my life and gaining control of my health, more specifically my weight. Just a few days before I turned 44 I decided to attend a weight loss seminar at Beaumont. I had done this once before and decided I wasn’t ready. This time I went for the weight loss program and the bariatric seminar. I came home weighed my options and said fuck this let’s do this.
I made my appointment for my evaluations and I just had them a week ago. I was considering the sleeve, but after talking to the doctor we decided on the bypass. I just have so much weight to lose it’s the better option. They did blood work and measurements. I got weighed and when the scale said 480 I nearly shit my pants. 20 pounds less then 500, that was an eye opener.
Then I met with the dietitian. She gave me a 1,200 to 1,600 calorie diet (guideline) with menu ideas and other information. Now I used to just drink that amount in Pepsi so I was concerned about that. But as it turns out that is A LOT of food when you are eating healthy. More then I am used to so it is a bit of a struggle. But I started on Saturday the 13th and the clock just chimed that today is the 18th and I am on track and no Pepsi has flown over my lips.
I also met which the Psychologist who feels I have some self esteem issues I need to work on as well as not being a caregiver for everybody in the free world. Baby steps on that too.
And the I met with the exercise specialist. I am going to begin with just walking. Increasing the walking by 10% each week. Because I weigh so much that in itself is a lot to ask this body to handle right now. But as the weight drops the exercise program will evolve.
On this journey I am using the My Fitness Pal app to log my meals, calories and water. I am using a FitBit to keep track of my sleep (or lack of) and my steps per day. Hopefully these tools will keep me on track.
Oh and I can”t forget about using this blog too as a tool to handle the emotional shit that comes up. I will be on a whole more frequently now. I want to document the journey for others that are thinking about it and for myself. So I can remind myself why in the hell I am doing this in the first place.
Well it is bedtime now. With out the Pepsi sleep is a big deal. Need way more then I used to. Goodnight friends.
I told myself when I finally began this weight loss journey I would document it through my blog. So here it goes. Early morning of day four and it fucking sucks.
My schedule is all messed up. I am having problems getting all the meals in and I really want to sleep. I mean ALL the time.
I haven’t cheated nor do I even want to but the lack of energy is killing me. Momma and I went to the store and by the time we were done I just felt like crying. What the fuck is that about?
I know it will get better every single day but the start is rough.
Hellooo Dear Friends. I am sorry I haven’t been on to visit for a long time. I have no excuses other then my big ass wants to sleep when I am not working.
With that being said it does give me a ton of shit to catch you up on. There have been a number of changes in my life and every single one has been for the good. The biggest change was that my Momma has sold her house and she and her crew have come to live with us. When I tell people that they wrinkle their noses and ask, “How is that going?” My response is what shocks them. We are all doing good and I am not alone all the time anymore.
Is it an adjustment? Of course it is. Two grown women in the same house with three cats, two birds and a dog. Throw DJG into the mix when he is home and it’s a lot going on. But let me tell you what it means to me.
First and foremost I know that my Momma is not alone. I work a lot so having her here eases my mind about her safety of being alone when I couldn’t get up to her house. My pets have some company during the long hours that I am gone. Grandma is always good for some head scratches and butt pats. My flowers that I dearly love and buy every year aren’t dying from my neglect. They are big and full and beautiful. I smile every time I walk down my walkway. Speaking of smiles Momma brought along her bird feeders and first thing in the morning when I get home from work, my front yard looks like Hitchcock’s The Birds. Lol. This morning the little fat squirrels are out there too. Playing in the yard and eating the falling seeds. These are the pleasures that I wouldn’t have in my life without her here.
Also the junk mail isn’t stacking because when it starts to I get the “Momma look”. So I try to go through it when it comes in. Now I have to work on my filing systems which I currently suck at. We are also working on shredding the old papers. I stalled a bit, I’m not going to lie. I find myself just physically exhausted most days. But that is my fault. Between the size of my ass and the hours I work I wear myself a little thin.
Well my friends that is all I got time for today. I have a couple e-mail to answer and then I am off to bed for my four hours of sleep. Take care and hugs all around.
Today started out rough. Basically we (my coworkers and I)were told in a note that we are horrible staff that don’t clean or take responsibility for things around the group home. That we are costing the company money. I had to leave from that mess to drive to Auburn Hills and in thirty minutes make it to Milford. I made it in fifty and I am good with that. Cement trucks move slow and I am not having a stroke about it being in front of me. We just called and said we are running a bit late.
Here is where my mind is today… I have seven months and twenty-seven days left at my present job. For the past twelve years I have worked very hard to earn a reputation as a fair, consistent and caring staff. I hope to carry that through until the end. Those that work with me will see that, but those that do not appear to be forgetting that about me even though I have shown it time and time again in the past. This bothers me and even though I shouldn’t let it, it does.
Today with the note my problem is that someone got to cuss me out and I was not allowed in any way or shape to defend myself or my staff. That bothers me. It is a bit of a pussy move to be honest. Call a meeting, say it to our faces, listen to our responses not write and run.
So how do I handle this situation? I work the next seven months and 27 days in the same manner I have for the last twelve years. My anger would change nothing, my whining would change nothing and the truth is nothing I say or do will change things which is the reason for me leaving in the first place.
Well it’s getting late and my bed is calling my name. Good night friends, sleep well.
And I am excited about it. I have my dinosaur (that is what I lovingly call my laptop)up and running. I one day I will have to look into a new one, but for now it’s my buddy.
It is a beautiful day outside and in about an hour or so I will be heading into to work. I love working afternoons because I get a feel for what the weather is going to be before I ever leave the house.
I just sat down for a little lunch. Not something that I am used to doing. But I hope that it is something that I can get in the habit of.
Well I think it’s time to go take care of my pests. Have a great Thursday!
Today is my first overtime shift since before my surgery. I have done the my paperwork, some bed checks and I am currently relaxing a bit.
I have been thinking about my girls a lot today. Lilly is so young with so much energy and Cali just wants to chill. I think I want to put a cat mobile in the livingroom. Something to occupy the little fur ball a bit. She doesn’t understand that Cali is an old lady and she doesn’t want to run and play. Then a hour of intense play a day. Like fifteen minutes at a time to use up that kitten energy. I think if I do that she will give Cali a break.
Well time for bedchecks again. Have a peaceful night.
It’s almost 2am on this Saturday morning. I worked for several hours on paperwork. Once the leg started bugging me I decided it was time for a break.
Friday was a fairly laid back day. Did some much needed shopping. As usual that was enough to tucker me out. One of the joys of this recovery limited energy. So I napped before work.
Naps man I love them. An hour or two to rest and recharge. In my thirties I was a machine. Go twenty hours straight and crash for four. Get up and do it all again. I just don’t have it in me anymore. I can sleep eight hours a night and still need a nap. Lol.
I think that’s why I love having cats. If I want to nap, they want to nap and usually with me. How cool is that? Two beautiful warm balls of love snoozing beside me. No matter how shitty my day crawling into bed with my girls just makes it better.
Well I think the break is over. Time to get busy again. Sleep well friends.
Good evening friends. It’s dinner time at the casa. The bird, both cats and me. I used my new can opener today that my Momma bought me.
The pain meds are messing with my tummy a bit so I am eating a little bit at a time. It seems to be helping.
Other then a little tummy trouble everything is going well. My baby gets her stitches out in three days and I see the doctor tomorrow.
Tonight we are going to curl up with some tv and relax the way we are supposed to. Hope you have a great night too my friends.
Today is one week since I had my knee worked on. I am happy to say that today is going well. Usually by now I am cussing and whining why me.
Maybe it’s the addition of the pain meds that is making me so mellow or it could be the Blue Bloods marathon with boneless BBQ wings to eat. Either way I am not complaining.
Yesterday was my baby’s last day on pain meds. Today she is sleeping in my bed. I keep checking on her but she is just snoozing away.
Momma is going to have Easter dinner for the family. I think I want to try something cool for dessert so I am scouting recipes. It”s not like I don’t have the time.
I think it’s nap time now. See you friends!