Hi I’m alive I’m just unable to get on line for a while (I’m at Ma’s House).  Hope everyone out there are well.

  Hi folks!  Been a while and I’m sorry about that.  Been busy with work and life in general.  Hope all is well for everyone.  This will be the basic catch you all up on my life entry and then maybe over the next couple of days I can talk about some of the ideas rattling around in my head.
  Home- Home is pretty good.  Really messy still, but not having been home much myself I haven’t been able to keep up with the mess.  The washer isn’t fixed and I doubt it will be until I actually do it myself or have someone like Don Juan come out and look at it or pay professional.  Fine with me.  I gotta take care of it so at least I know it will eventually get done.  Kind of like the stove,  kept smelling lots of gas when using the top burners.  Had to call myself and schedule someone to come out.  Did that today.  The guy found the problem and ordered the part.  In a week, no more problem.  Until then I can’t use the front left burner (like I would have anyway).  BUT getting that fixed has made me decide that I should have someone look into the dishwasher next.  God how much easier my life would be if I could that fucker up and running.

Health-Tired as humanly possible and hardly able to sleep.  My body is fighting me all the time.  That and the brain seems to never shut down.  So I’m going over stuff in my head all the time.  But I’m making some changes including ordering that diet the doc wants me on so that should help.  Still cute though. 

Work- Some recent incidents at work have made me rethink my job a bit.  I go into work monday thru friday at 7AM until 9AM because my boss can’t get her ass out of bed.  I did this because I needed the money and I thought I was helping my boss out by giving her the time in case she over sleeps to get to work on time.  I find out this week that she isn’t even trying to get out of bed before 7AM.  What the fuck?  She’s been late eight days in a row. As in 9:15 or later.  So I did a little math and found out with gas, pop and lack of sleep I basically bring home ten bucks a day (tops).  It’s just not worth it.  Especially since on Tuesdays and Thursdays I worked until 9PM at the other home and had to be up at 5AM the next morning.  I’m six years older, two hundred Plus pounds heavier, work a fucked up schedule and I can get to work on time so why can’t she?  So this plus all that is coming up in the family the next couple of weeks was enough for me to say I’m done with these mornings.  Granted I’m going to be down to working thirty-two hours a week for a while, but damn I haven’t had a day off where I wasn’t running around to hospitals and what not in three months.  So hopefully I’ll finally be able to get back to 100% by not working so much. 

Personal- My husband and I did not celebrate Valentine’s Day yet because we both had to work and pay day isn’t until Friday.  So this friday is a big day for me.  I’m having a birthday lunch with my mothers (yes as in two) the birth mother that you all know and love AND the nanny like mother who helped raise me while Momma worked.  I must admitt I’m looking forward to this lunch.  These two women have helped make me who I am and I’m realizing that I’m not half bad!  Then David and I will be celebrating Valentines day.  I’m cooking (I hope) and I’d love to tell you what, but then it would ruin the surprise for the old man.  Then we are renting a few movies that I will probably sleep through, but it’s the thought that counts.  Oh and guess what?  I’m buying stuff for me again.  Yep.  I’m getting a hair cut, some new tennis shoes, the diet and a new tire for my truck.  All that should pretty much use up my whole over-time pay.  But It’s stuff that I need and want both so I’m not going to feel guilty about it.  Plus I’ve busted my ass to earn the money to do it!
Are you all still awake?  Well that’s life in a nut shell or nut house depending on how you look at it.  Nothing very exciting right now.  Maybe with some time off my brain will thaw out and I’ll become fun again!  Then I can get back to visiting all your sites and catching up with you!

That’s all that I’ve been hearing from people lately.  My friends, coworkers and even my husband at times.  Sorry folks, just really don’t want to talk.  Takes too much energy to talk.  Need all the energy I have to think.

I understand that when I get quiet people get concerned, it is a little out of character for me, but not as out of character as it used to be.  Call it my “Thumper Philosophy”.  I’m living by the “if you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all” way of life.  Seeing all the energy that the drama queens use in keeping themselves important has made me understand how much I waste with the bullshit of life.

So trust me my friends just because my mouth isn’t going a mile a minute it doesn’t mean there is something wrong.  It just means that things are different.  But if I find somebody needs a good ass kicking, I’m still me enough to do that! 

It’s been a while since I’ve been able to get on-line.  With no phone I have to go to the library and I’ve been working my ass off to get the phone turned back on.  How is everybody doing?  I’m just plodding along right now.  A day at a time and what ever other cliches tickle your fancy.

You have all heard me say that I believe that God doesn’t give us more then we can handle, but the last week or so I think I almost reached my limit.  One disappointment after another.  I’ll not list them all because I do have to go home sometime today and you all have lives out there too.  So here are the big two.

1) After being an independent contractor and owing the government hundreds of dollars at tax time, my husband and I were both looking for a little tax return from Uncle Sam.  Didn’t happen.  It seems because we both claim married that we still owe money.  What the fuck?  The nice lady explained it all and I understand, but not well enough to explain it to you.  The bright side is my state should pretty much pay my federal so I guess that’s the silver lining.

2) The other great thing is our furnace went out more then a week ago and we had to have someone look at it.  He untightened a screw and $70 later we had warmth. But the six hours without heat caused some freezing in the pipes even though they are all protected with heat tape.  The pipe affected goes to the washing machine and now my husband thinks we have some kind of clog, like a deposit build up, so the cold water only drips into the washing machine.  JOY OH FUCKING JOY.  But the hot works so he doesn’t think it’s the machine itself.  What does that mean?  I guess we have to take apart the pipe and try to snake it or something.  The problem is neither of us has a clue how to go about correcting the problem.  Anybody got any ideas?

I swear my friends, this past week I almost curled up into a little ball and lost my mind.  I know everything happens for a reason, maybe I was a serious dickhead in my last life, but damn I could use a break.  And not the kind that requires hospitalization.  Tell Me Some Good Happenings PLEASE!!