So I woke up to a phone call from a friend who is feeling upset.  I do my best to help my friend calm down.  Then I try to go back to sleep.  The mind starts going, then the body says well fuck your awake lets go pee.  So I get up to use the restroom and say to myself screw it you know you aren’t going to sleep.  So I have a cup of chocolate milk( 2%) and a shower.  I dress and puppy and I go outside.  And as I stand out in the middle of my yard watching my 12 year old dog run around sniffing looking like a happy puppy I say to myself this is why it’s worth it.  Every back pain, every piece of bullshit at work is for this.  I have a home that I can be proud of, puppy has a yard where he is safe because of the the fence and when I go to work I do not have to worry about wiring or broken floors.  My girls and my boys are happier and healthier here.  I feel safer and want to come home at night, it’s worth it.