I have stuff going on that concerns me, but I cannot write about it because it concerns work and I don’t want to lose my job because of my big mouth.  I will say one of my residents is upset by a change at the home and laws put me between a rock and a hard place.  I am doing my best to sooth him, but he is asking me because he trusts me and I hate that I don’t know what to say.

Home is good.  An understanding has been reach at the casa.  One that will ease my mind about the dog and his bladder.  So keep your fingers crossed it works out.  Hardest part about this whole thing is doing right by “my children”.  I refuse for their care to be lessened because of me.  I think my Baby is getting a loose bladder.  I had pee-pee on my couch which I haven’t had happen before.  We cleaned it up, but before the next social event I will have it treated and cleaned professionally.  So it’s time to see the vet.  Baby is like his human mom and carries a lot of weight so it may be from being fat, but I want to know if I should be doing something for him.  And Tyler needs a new license too which means shots.  Can you say money?  Or more importantly good bye to money!

I had somebody I love hurt me yesterday.  Said something that wasn’t meant to hurt me, but when I came out of their mouth it was a knife in my heart.  I never got off the phone so fast in my life!  I could feel tears coming and I refused to cry about something so dumb.  I refused to cry when I know it was not aimed at me personally.  This person would not hurt me like that on purpose.  Now I am debating do I answer the phone the next time it rings?  I mean part of me feels like I need to back off and get control again.  I had to do this once before, but the circumstances other then the stupid comment were good.  So I guess I should trust my gut.  If it rings and I feel I should pick it up I will.  If not I will let it ring.

And the truth is with all the crap going on I feel so blessed.  I have my folks, friends and a home of my own.  A job that I love (most of the time) and at 36 I am finally figuring shit out slowly!
Enjoy this Beautiful day!