You all know I live in Pontiac right?  So you might be thinking that maybe just maybe it might have been taken at home.   Well….No.  I always put my car in the garage at home and who would want one hubcap?  So I am thinking that due to me having shitty front tires maybe it vibrated off?  So on Wednesday when I get some newer tires I will see if they have a replacement hubcap.

The reunion was great folks.  I had fun.  I didn’t take any pictures because well to be honest I did buy any new batteries like a dipshit. lol.  But it was great seeing the few old friends I got to see.  In other people’s pictures I look cute, drunk and happy!  Folks I wasn’t drunk.  It was just I took two vicoden earlier in the day for a doctor appointment and had one long island.  But if I had been drinking what the hell difference would it make I’ve been over 21 for a while.  My husband made an impression as a very sweet hottie.  LOL.  Which he will shake his head when he hears me say it, but secretly loves it.  A lot of the reunion guys looked old.  Which is probably what they thought of me but not like I give a rat’s ass.  And ONLY one male classmate talked to me.  Lots looked my way, but said nada.   Maybe they didn’t want to talk to me or maybe it was the large man standing beside me that stopped them.  One guy messaged me later on facebook and said he was going to come over and say hi but he didn’t know if he should.  I told him he should have that it was my husband and he is a big teddy bear.

Tomorrow there is a fundraiser for the the special needs people my company takes care of.  I’ll be going for about 2.5 hours before work to help out.  So if you live in Clarkston it’s at Sportsman’s Grill from 12p-9p I will be there 12p to 2:45p.

What else?………Oh hamburgers don’t like me anymore.  Actually I think most red meat doesn’t like me anymore it is the joys of getting older I guess.  NOW if I could just get Pepsi not to like me anymore imagine how small my ass would be?

The overtime has picked up at least for now.  Two maybe three days a week.  Going to help out a lot.  Pay for meds, tires and maybe a new shirt or two.  Oh and bills.  Can’t forget those suckers!

Want to go on a training trip to Iowa in October.  They will pay my conference fees I have to pay the rest.  So probably not going to happen.

David and I celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary.  He took me out to Outback for steaks and a blooming onion.  It was really sweet of him.  But paid for the steak later (see the crap about red meat above).

I am happy to say that the changes that I have made recently in my life have made me probably that happiest I have been in years.  For you guys this may be a T.M.I.  Section you might want to skip.  I hate that I waited this long to get this I.U.D.  It’s a Mirena and it gives off hormones as well as prevent pregnancy and I swear just the little increase is making me feel better.  Calmer and the desire to eat has decreased.  Now they don’t say that is a bonus but it’s happening to me.  And lets be honest a whoooole lot less bitchy!

Happy Birthday to my brother Les a couple of days late.  I sent him a message, but wanted to say it here.

Momma made Tuna Noodle for dinner and it’s done so I am off to enjoy my FAVORITE meal!  Much love to all!!

Tomorrow is the Bar night of my 20th.  high school reunion.  I am looking forward to going and spending some time with old friends.  I spent last Sunday with my buddy Suz so she could give me a make over.  I have high and low lights in my hair.  She did my toes in this pretty brown and arched my eyebrows so now I have two.  Here is the finish project

Me Today

So with some pretty clothes I should pass for human!!  I’m sorry Rachel who is in England and Kimba who is in Ohio won’t be there, but they will be with us in Spirit.

No drinking for me.  Too expensive.  Just a coke or two.  But I know fun will be had by all!  I’ll let you know how things go.  20 years is a long time between visits.

My beautiful and wonderful coworker is on maternity leave and has been for about 5or6 weeks which means I have either 1or2 weeks until she comes back.  I love the overtime, but I really need  sleeeeep.   So I will be doing the happy dance when I see her.

Speaking of the happy dance.  Have you been doing your happy dance lately?  I have.  I am tired, but I do on occasion break in to the happy dance!  Why?  Paying the bills, getting to see my folks, happy husband and I just turned 38!  And a big thanks for all the birthday wishes.

Okay just wanted to say hi!  I am going to go help my momma now!  Take care all!!!

Literally.  At the same time showing a little wear and tear around the edges.  Notice the old man looks hotter then me.   Keep in mind I just  vacuumed, changed bird cage bottoms and bathed my mom’s dog.  So I earned looking like ass.  But I feel great!  I am one of those people who thrive on long hours and being able to pay the bills.  The problem is the crash that eventually will happen.  But until then living the dream!!

This is how tired looks!

Hope  all is well with everybody.  Next picture I will be my hot self!  LOL!

What could be more fun then a few minutes on the computer?  A few minutes on the computer at home!  But since I amstill without the funds here I sit in a room full of people while I try to collect my thoughts.  I have been thinking a lot the last couple of days about life.  Not in a bad way mind you but in all the things I put on hold to work.  And so I decided I would take the time to come post and I would take the time to got the beach for a swim and I would still handle my bills but I would quit trying to find happiness in work.    So can I be happy that way.  My friends lets hope so.  Because working my ass off wasn’t helping so maybe this will.

So of f  the top of my head….Hey pussies that think your fooling people by hiding your bullshit you’re not.  By not telling the truth you make yourselves look more guilty and people lose more respect for you!

Yep.   That is basically how I feel right now.  I am so fucking tired of being treated like I don’t exsist.  I get so tired of holding my tongue in hopes maybe I will be rewarded for my talents at work.  But once again somebody far less qualified gets promoted to a job I know ten times more about.

BUT  I have to say thanks.  Thanks to those I used to call friend.  To those who made the shitty decisions because your lack of insight has made me decide that I need to move on.  That’s right if I am to continue to be overlooked so individuals with half my talents  can make more money then it shows how much I am truly valued.  You want to show me I am worth it?  Don’t hand awards on paper or hug me!  As Cuba said, “Show Me The Money.”  and treat me with respect or see ya!

I have been thinking about all this great shit to talk about when I got to a computer and I can blog.  Now it’s like there is a little man standing just inside my ear looking across the emptiness and wondering how to cross.  It’s all gone!

So lets go with how I feel.  I feel blessed.  I feel relaxed.  And even though things are not perfect I am feeling pretty damn lucky.

I have spent most of my life worrying about my weight and at least half worrying about the bills.  Sometimes just making myself sick about both.  So I resolved to stop.  I can feel upset by the lack for food in the fridge for about a second, but then I say thank you for the paid rent, gas, electric and water bill.  I am not worrying about everything I put in my mouth and you know what?  I eat less of it because I don’t  continue stuffing and telling myself this is the last [coke, oreo] I am ever going to have.

And when the phone goes off I answer it if I feel like working that night.  But if I want to take the night off I do.  And I read!!!  I read every night before I go to sleep.  I read on my off days when I just want to relax.  I visit the vast places in books that I have missed for so long.  I make friends with new characters and I revisit old ones.

I go to the fucking movies now!  I saw two movies in the same day and I allow myself the simple pleasure of an occasional lunch with friends.

And when I start to stress I stop.  I breath and if it is a big decision I nap on it.  Then I make that decision without the stress.

I’m doing alright.  How about you?

In my minivan (and I still shudder when I say that) I have a working CD player.  On the Trip up to my folks I decided to listen to my old friend Rick Springfield.  I remember when Jessie’s Girl first came out I was in LOVE.  I must of played the 45 a billion times much to the dismay of my Family.  My Mom even took me to see him in concert and I swear I almost wet myself.  Now here I am 37 years old just singing along with Rick.  Thinking about it now if I am 37 Mr. Springfield has to be in or around his fifties.  But when I hear his songs neither of us have aged. In my mind my hair is still red and my boobs are still high  and Rick Springfield still looks sexy in his thin silver tie and purple tennis shoes!

Other great things about childhood were Sandy Beach.  We would swim there all summer.  The lake bottom was sand and it wasn’t full of seaweeds or slimy stuff.  Go-karts and putt-putt golf at Sportway with the boys.  And of course walking around Summit Place Mall like we owned the place.  I could go on all day about how it used to be, but I also like where things are going.

Okay so it is one day sooner then it should be, but I have my fat paws on the computer today.  We are up visiting Momma and Dad for Easter one day Early.  Momma gave us a little basket of goodies  with my favorite at Lindt Chocolates.   YUMMY, DROOL!

So all is going pretty good.  Working and the repairs on the house are done.  Now it is clean up and put things back to where it goes.  No small feat!

And lets see weight loss has stalled some due to an enormous amount of chocolate that it has made it into my mouth the last couple of days.  But I will get back on track on monday.  No regrets!  It’s been great.

Other then that all is well.  Wish I had something exciting to report but I am pretty boring right now.  Happy Easter to ALL!

I’m sitting here enjoying my Pepsi and the calm of my parents house.  I am feeling very solid.  Solid is the best term.  Not unhappy.  Not giddy.  I feel goodokayfinereasonable.  The last two weeks have changed me some how.  It’s like a more subtle I don’t give a fuck about a lot of things.  For instance…Say I owe you money.  Instead of making myself sick over it.  I will work the overtime when I can and pay when I can.  Say your talking shit about me at work.  Well if your not saying it to my face then it doesn’t matter.  If you have something to say about how I dress, look, walk or talk. I say whatever.  And if you feel I don’t care enough about the people in my life you really don’t know me.

I feel so relaxed and I don’t feel the need to really talk or be talked to by many people.  Just those that I truly love and enjoy. The rest I am fine without.  Simple.  Keeping it simple.

I maybe be looking for a new place to live.  Something a bit cheaper or maybe I just need to step up my goal for getting the house I am in.  Small steps.  Keeping them small.

The repairs on my house should begin this week.  I don’t mind the new tile that the home owner picked out, but I hate the counter top.  But since it’s not my house and I wasn’t asked to help look it goes in the whatever category.  Not going to get upset about it.

My puppy goes in for a teeth cleaning and oral surgery next Monday.  Puppy he is 13yrs old.  But now his breath won’t smell like somebody’s butt.  Other then that they are going to remove some old dog skin tabs and he should be in pretty good shape.  I call it the puppy tune-up!

And I think I am going down to The Biggest Loser Auditions.  I mean what the heck.  All I will lose is a wee bit of time.  The most I could lose is my whole ass if I got on.

Other then that life is as I said goodokayfinereasonable.  How about you?