Cindyisms

And here I sit clicking away on the keys.  Normally I would be in bed right now, but some stuff came up at work so I had to stay over and help.  I don’t really mind too much.  I mean we look out for each other there and take care of one another.  When we do that we care better for the guys.  I wish I could put up pictures of my guys.  They are so great.  There are days when I would like to choke the living crap out of one of them, but they are rare.  Tonight we had coffee house which is where we take our consumers out for snacks, live music and socializing.  They are with other consumers and their staff and most seem to have a great time.  Two of my guys love to go and so we go almost every week.  They chat, eat, shake hands and dance the night away.  As staff I pretty much sit back and watch, but on occasion one of my guys will ask me to dance so I do.  There are some remarkable people there.  Some consumers from other homes in our company go pretty regularly and they are a treat to watch.  There is one staff that goes there whose consumer is in a wheel chair.  This woman grabs the wheel chair and like pops a wheelie and dances with him in the chair.  And the consumer gets such joy from it. What a cool lady.

When I tell people I do direct care the normal response is, “Oh. I could never do that.” And I use to say sure you could and tell them why they could.  Now I said maybe you could, maybe you couldn’t.  Not everyone is cut out for it.  I’m proud to say I am.  I think most days I am prouder about what I do now then I have ever been at a job.  It wasn’t my goal to be 35 and a direct care worker, but it was my goal to be 35 and making a difference in someone’s life.  Okay so I don’t teach 90 kids a day anymore, big deal.  I have three remarkable men that depend on me each and everyday.  What could be more important?

Look Mom day two.  I maybe… wait do I say it… be on track?  Naw because something will happen that will draw my attention else where so I am just going to enjoy the moment.
Okay I want an MP3 player and I want one the you can select the song that you want and holds lots of songs that I can put in by mood.  Example: Strong woman day would include Independance Day, I will Survive and Big Girls Don’t Cry.  Sing out loud would have: Jessie’s Girl, Fat Bottom Girls and almost all Bob Seger songs.  Being a chick day: Your So Vain, I Can’t Make You Love Me, Don’t Take the Girl.  So if anyone has any suggestions about MP3 players or songs that I should have a listen to speak up!  My songs.  Songs that I love and would never be without would be 1) Knights In White Satin, 2) Reason, 3)Don’t Stand and 4) Fancy.  What are your songs?

I have to tell you my husband and I had a great visit at my folks house. We got a great surprise when we found out Mike and Dar had come up for a visit so we got to see them too. Dar went shopping with Daddy which was supposed to be my job for the day, but I hate shopping so that was really cool of her! And Mike made this killer dinner. Steak with mushrooms and stuff, lobster tail with melted butter, baked potato with sour cream and butter. Shrimp cocktail, salad and bread. Yummy! It was like a fat girls wet dream!
Momma let me wash some clothes. I managed to get them all washed, but not dry so I’m doing that now at home. It will take a while because the washer and dryer are a stackable set so it is a little small. I always tell everyone I throw in two pairs of fat girl jeans and the fucker starts looking like it might coming running across the floor.
Please don’t get me wrong I am so happy to be here. I was so concerned about the move. How would we keep it clean? How would I feel about being here without my “other mother”? Was it the right move for my furry family? Well I’ll tell you this. It stays pretty darn clean. I take care of the litter box everyday before work. We all load the dish washer and run it (I LOVE having a dishwasher again). And I vacuum the living room, laundry and small hall everyday. Who knew I could be so domestic?! Have I cooked here? Sure I have twice. And that is in the same month. That I call a miracle.
I also feel closer to my other mother. I feel like she is here with me when I do something well and when I fuck up! LOL.
And my furry family are so happy. They have more space, puppy has a whole yard to run around in without a leash and since we have been here they all seem to feel better.
So if all I have to bitch about is a little washer and dryer then I am one lucky woman! 

Hi everyone.  Okay don’t got a lot of things to say, but I do want to say a late Happy New Year and shit.  I’m at Momma’s house, but the funny thing is that I have interent at home.  I just have been too busy to sit down or too tired.  But I hope to get to some type of regular thing going.  Holidays were good.  Worked and stuff.  And I am making head way on finding my livingroom.  I think I got three more boxes to deal with. 
So did anyone make any New Years Resolutions?  I completely forgot and I didn"t even manage to get home before the New Year came in.  I was driving home.  But when I got home my husband had made me a steak, scallops with bacon and twice baked potatoes.  Yumm!
Other then that not a whole lots going on.  Or nothing really worth mentioning here.  Hey you know what I did make a change, maybe not a resolution, but I decided no booze for a while.  I guess that is as close to a resolution as i would get.  Not because it is becoming a “problem” but because of all the sugar I am sucking down.  That and the stupid factor.  My God am I stupid when I drink.  So if we’re hanging out and you offer me a drink and I turn it down don’t take it personal.  Just want to be smart for a while.