Ever get those days when you find that you feel naughty? Everything that you say comes out a little slanted to the obscene side. Every touch seems like it a little bit more lingering then it should. You look in the mirror and where yesterday you saw some hideous creature, you see one hot momma/poppa. I’m having one of those weeks and I LIKE IT! This week I’m not the funny fat girl with great hair. This week I’m the voluptuous woman with great hair and sex appeal. I like this me better. I’m more confident when I’m this me. More people smile and yes I’m sure it is because I smile more, but I’ll take it anyway I get it. And men, well lets be honest there are enough guys that like a little (a lot) more meat on their BBQ. Yes I just compared myself to meat and I LIKE IT.

I spent Friday afternoon with my friend Sue. She is a overweight, 56 year old black woman and she is my mentor. My mentor of what you might ask?! Well my mentor at being a sexy, confident and wonderful woman. Don’t get me wrong my momma can charm the pants off any man so I come by a lot of this stuff naturally, but Sue teaches me that it’s good to trust in your own sexuality. That it’s okay if your first thought when you see a man is “Damn can I take him home?” Even if he is a priest. Doesn’t mean your going to do it and the priest of course you can’t deny he is hot, but that by thinking it isn’t hurting anyone.

I think this helps out with a lot in life. When you see yourself as beautiful and desirable that is the person you project. I know it sounds like I’m bragging,(but it’s my blog anyway)but this week I took a little more care with my clothes, hair and make-up. Hell I wore earrings and I wasn’t even going to a funeral! Know what happened? People talked to me all the time. Said I looked pretty, said that I smelled good and said I look happier then I have in a while. NICE!! And it keeps the old man on his toes. He looks a little bit closer and touches a little more often because the vibe I’m giving off doesn’t say “fuck off and die.”

So I’m going to keep this going as long as I can. Maybe again it will be second nature like it was when I was younger. Always better to feel beautiful then like a big pile of poop.